To the so called father that left...

To the so called father that left; Every night I stay up wondering. I wonder how you're doing. I wonder how much you think of me. I wonder if you even think of me. I wonder if you even remember me. I don't know you that well. I just know that you and momma always argue over the phone about me. I know that you don't miss me. And I absolutely know that you don't love me. If you did you wouldn't have left. I've only met you once, maybe twice. Momma tells me stories about how you're dangerous, about how you're no good, about how I even have several siblings that I don't know of because of you. She even told me that you left the day that I came home. But you know one thing that she told me that hurts the most? That every year you always go to jail on my birthday. When she finally let me get in touch with you when I was 8, I was so happy. I'd finally get to know my real father. You made so many promises that made me get my hopes up. I sat by the window waiting for a letter in the mail. I sat by the phone everyday waiting for you to call to say that you love me and that you'd come back. And you know what? I was disappointed every single time. Every. Single. Day. I would cry myself to sleep every night because I knew you didn't love me. You've hurt me in ways more than one. You're a liar, a thief, a drug-head, and an alcoholic. But I hope you're happy with who you are. I hope you're doing well. I wish the best for you. Because I know you wouldn't wish the same for me. But guess what, I have something much better than you, I have an amazing step-dad whom I consider my "real" dad because he stepped up to the plate when you abandoned my mom and I. He's been there for me every single day since I was one. He's helped me become who I am today. He's showed me that I am loved by someone who considers himself my dad. But I do want to thank you. Thank you for showing me to rely on no one. Thank you for allowing my step father to show me that you don't have to be blood to be loved like family. Thank you for making me who I am. Thank you for making me stronger by all the hell you put my mother and I through. Thank you for not being there. I am happy with my life without you in it and nothing can really change that. Hope you're happy with your new family or whatever you're doing now.

Sincerely,

The daughter you never really cared about nor loved.